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Hindsight is 20/20 as they say.  We all need to take a long hard look at the health issues we are sensing.  Deep down, you kind of know if something is wrong.  It’s the stuff you think about late at night in bed.  The fears that only you have.

For some of us, we are just too young to contemplate death.  I have a hunch the older we get the more accepting we are of our ultimate demise, more accepting of the fact that something is going to get ya.

I was completely unaware that I had heart disease.  I was very aware that something was not right with my body.  I have always turned to running when I needed to feel better about myself.  The problem was I could not seem to get my body to go further than hundred yards or so.  I was not out of breath, I just could not move forward.

In retrospect there were a bunch of signs.  I was not blatantly ignoring the symptoms, I was more involved with finding other causes.  About six months prior to my diagnosis I had a full physical with my MD.  An Executive Physical that is quite comprehensive.  It was determined at that time in August of 2010 that I should pay attention to my cholesterol.   The Doctor also prescribed a blood pressure medicine.  Needless to say this did not go over well with me and I attributed every symptom of angina with the new meds.  I changed dosages and manufacturers multiple times.  I spent hours on WebMD, very sure in the fact that the angina symptoms were being directly caused by the blood pressure medicine.

By the way, the Doctor also suggested I take a cholesterol drug as well, which I flatly refused and suggested I would solve it by running more.  That’s what I did.  I ran in the middle of the day, mostly on weekends… the hotter the better.  The more I suffered the more I felt that the issue would resolve itself.  As I have previously blogged; you cannot outrun your bad habits.

The next bit of advice; You Have to Face your Fears.

It’s good advice and it comes with age.  The younger we are the less we want to address our shortcomings.  We are invincible and time is on our side.  The problem with this approach, is for most of us, time is not on our side.  We are sicker than we have ever been and more than half of us have serious underlying health issues in our forties.  LIsten to the signs.  Pay attention.  Explore the possibility that it could be something serious.  Ignoring an issue will never make it go away.

“First ask yourself: What is the worst that can happen? Then prepare to accept it. Then proceed to improve on the worst.”  Dale Carnegie

For me, knowing what was wrong with me was much easier than not knowing.  Once I identified the problem I could set about fixing it.  And if it can’t be fixed, than spend every single moment living.

Not knowing and living in fear of what could be is not living.

Turn around, Stand Tall, Face Your Fears